A chilly & wet day to wake up to. It's almost 2pm & i still think it's morning. Feel like going back to bed, all snuggled up. Bear hug!
Anyway just need to get myself clear. I HAVE TO BREAK THE HABIT - habit of consuming too many sweet stuffs everyday.
But that doesnt mean i've eaten too much candies. No no. I just had a few chocolates, candies maybe HACKS & tic tac only. Plus all the other food that accumulates. And probably because of sweet drinks too... =S
Have to cut down on junk food & drink more water.
I have to start flossing then brushing & lastly, applying my tooth mousse. Sigh... Don't know how long i can maintain this daily routine.
Yesterday, i kinda had ice cream..... twice...
Couldnt help it! My friend was eating McFlurry & i gotta have a few spoons of it. After that, i bought Berry-licious popsickle from 7-11. Hehe!
But that was it. Just a little treat for me self. Can't expect me to straight away change right?! pfft..

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Experiencing weakness has made me stronger - To be more tough & agile overcoming my losing points.
But have i struggle enough to do & to give my very best?
At times, i felt more vulnerable instead...

We smile during harsh times
We endure pain that can still be tolerated
We still accept things in life
Though there are some which we regretted

We win with pride, we lose with honour
Each moment of our lives, we try seeing the positive side
Some would rise while others fall
Thus, we held hope & had patience as our guide

Happiness come & go
Like everything else that we've battled
Life is short
But the longest journey we've travelled

Hello owls... or bat... or whatever nocturnal creatures...
It's 12:26am & i'm all alone at home.. Family's out at East Coast Park having a blast i guess..
Went to ZCC earlier on, with my laptop.... heavy....

Tue, 151209: Woke up early, an hour journey to NDC, & while i was there, waited 17 mins to be called in. Finally when it was my turn, yet to reach 5 mins, i was already done! So i went out to get my next appointment & surprisingly, i had to pay $34. I was like stunned for a moment. The doctor checked my teeth for less than 5 mins & i was charged. And it's more than 30 bucks! Sigh... nvm. After that, meet mum at Plaza Singapura. Had lunch together at LJS. Then mum went to work & i went home.

Wed, 161209: Nothing much. Just resting at home.

Thurs, 171209: Mum's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAK! Love you!
Had to go for another dental appointment, but this time was at Health Promotion Board.... which is just beside NDC.... No need to elaborate. The process was fcking painful. I became so moody after that, also because of some reason. Bro & i went to meet Zack at Wheelock & chilled at Forum McD for a while. Soon, we went seperate ways as he head to AMK while bro & i joined mum & dad for early dinner at Lucky Plaza. In the evening, decided to catch a movie at Cathay building, but the show no longer plays after 5 plus. Same goes for Plaza S'pura. We almost gave up & wanted to go home. Luckily the smart alex here, (haha! lame..) decided to watch the movie at Iluma. Since we were still at Cathay, i told sis to check the timing at FilmGarde & booked our tickets online. When we reached there, we were still an hour early. Dad collected the tickets & we chilled at Coffee Beans.

Anyway, my lovelies are safely back in Singapore. Hope you guys had fun & are now doing good. Have a good rest! =] "And Zack, i think you can forget about flying to London. Just stay here. Wakakaka..."

Ros & Shayne plus the other NYAA students from our school were off to Vietnam this noon as they will be having some activities there.
Didn't manage to see them off in the morning. Anyway they should be there by now..
Zack was suppose to have his flight like around this time back to London. But due to some problems, it's postponed to this Thursday.. "Ingat baru nak tengok dier kat airport. Hehe.."
Eudy went to Thailand a few days back.. Wondering how she's doing.. Haha. Only mention that she'll be back by 12am S'pore time but WHEN exactly i don't know..
Nazrul has went for NS.. Have fun dude :)
Whatever it is, take care people!!

This afternoon went for dance practice at ITE Simei. Bah! Roughly 2 hours of journey... Seriously made me fall asleep. But i had fun in class. I really enjoy Alex's hip hop class. After dance, ate dinner with Echa at KFC at Tamp. Window shopping after that, then head home.
Some complicated issues happened just now. I hope it's finally resolved... like really really solved!
No bluffing please. Got me worried man...

Tomorrow gotta wake up at about 8plus in the morning. Sigh. An hour journey to NDC then..... where should i go after that?? Grr... Wake up so early. Go dentist for a while then nothing to do & no where to go next!

Friday, 111209
Yesterday was one of my most emo-est (aka. emotional) days ever...
From the time i was on my way to school till the time i went home...
Fortunately, Mr Neo has somehow brightened up my mood during SVE lesson, with some activities he introduced to us. Since it was the last day of school for this term, he decided to let us play some games. It was really enjoyable & eventually we all received prizes that he bought for us. Before that, our first lesson was CSO, which we were supposed to be having our class test. But due to the PATHETIC attendance in the morning, it's cancelled.

After school, head to ZCC for some dance practice my friend was suppose to teach. However i was too early, he wasn't there, dance studio not open, decided to wait for an hour before the actual practice starts. Walked around Fajar & listening to music to kill time. And also because i was emo-ing. During that hour, i just remembered i had some urgent matters to do. So i pass the dance practice & walked all the way home... A gloomy day on a freakingly hot sunny day.

Saturday, 121209
Woke up at 6 plus in the morning. Get myself prepared & left house. Took train to Yishun station to meet Ros. Took train again to Yio Chu Kang station & head to NYP. Had a YOG Service Excellence training programme with some of the other volunteers, from 9am-1pm. Definitely learnt something for the YOG 2010. Surprisingly, most of the trainers were from our school. Our speaker was Mr Zaki.

I guess i've forgotten to mention about something in the previous post.. Writing For Business CA1 paper was alright.. Actually it's kinda easy.. Frankly the class & myself have tried the question before, as a practice, but unfortunately i didn't check my correction.. Which means my contents are poorly written..... again..

Anyway, this week is the last week of school.. Will be having 3 weeks break till January next year.. I seriously don't know how to spend my holidays.. I feel like working so badly, but on the other hand, i've other stuffs to do & i'm just afraid that i'm unable to juggle my time well..

Just thinking of some of the options -
. fat face (retail)
. converse (retail)
. big O (f&b)
. munch (f&b)

I need your help people.. Watcha think? Any other recommendations?
Sorry Eudy. I ain't going Vivo.. & sorry Jyothi. I don't think of working at NUH either.. Though it's a good pay.. Hehe.. So sorry my lovelies.. xD


Why do i keep letting my past to control me?
This is just f*cking frustrating & it agitates me.
Simple to ignore but difficult to forget about it.

Finally completed Service Excellence presentation on Fri.. I did good but could have done better.. Yesterday sis' beau came to our place. Soon all of us went out to celebrate sis' 20th birthday.. Happy birthday Kat! We all took public transportation instead of dad's car. Thought of listening to music from my cellphone, but realized that i left it on the dining table at home. Urgh..
We check out the new building - 313 @ Somerset.. Later, headed to Centerpoint.. I got bored of walking around, i asked mum if we could watch a movie. Since sis wanted to catch New Moon, we went Cathay building to check the timing.. There were 2 timings that was filling fast, so we decided to check at Plaza S'pura instead. Luckily we got a spot.. While the 4 of us watched New Moon, mum & dad were watching other shows.. Both movies ended at almost the same time, but mum & dad was a bit later by 20-30mins.. At around 11plus, we manage to board the last bus home.. Abang Zul had to take to MRT back to Yishun..

When we reached home, i got 1 missed call & 2 text msgs.. Didnt manage to reply cause i was so super duper tired & sleepy.. Hehe.. Sorry Eudy..
Today woke up at 10.50am.. Mum & dad have left to work.. Bro & sis still sleeping.. Now i'm alone at the living room, eating cereal, checking mails & blogging! At the same time, listening to MJ's song Human Nature & Stranger in Moscow.. It's very calming.....

Went to sch in the morning, all fine. Came home with blisters & plaster all over my feet!
Well. Only my left foot...
But still!!! Both feet hurts!

Sigh... Couldn't stop sneezing since i ended school 6 hours ago. The last period was Service Excellence, but Mr Neo gave us the opportunity to watch another movie in class instead of doing work. We sat in the air-conditioned room for 4.5 hours. My feet became numb, body shivering & running nose. Got tired after a long day in school, & i might have rubbed my eyes a little too harsh. So it became painful, then it itch, then tears start to fill my eyes..
Great.

Tomorrow lessons starts late. I'll probably reach school 11plus. Woohoo!
Some of my classmates are presenting their scripts tomorrow While others are on other days.
Oh shit!!! I have to present tomorrow.. Darn.
I totally forgot about my role as a customer for 'Aini's presentation.
My actual SVE presentation is this Friday. So there's lots of time for me to prepare.
Plus, it's easy peasy! haha.. oops!
Sigh.. Looks like i have to reach school by 10 or 10plus.

Will be sitting for WRB CA1 paper on Thursday.
Gosh. I really hate letter writing...

Had enough sugar rush for the night.
I've just consumed MUG Rootbeer. Thought of drinking Berries Brands next.
On second thought - nevermind.

Wednesday, 25 Nov '09

• Hurt my feet for wearing my Mondo high-heels to school yesterday.
• Met Jyothi at BPP after school to find Yan Teng's b'day present.
• Joined mum & dad after that..head home.

Thursday, 26 Nov '09

• Meet mum & dad at EXPO after school, for the IT & John Little sale
• Shopped much; bought my Addidas perfume, ZA tinted mosturiser & belt.
• Not forgetting a white Addidas long sleeve & Addidas 'Love Milan' t-shirt at the branded sale.
• Almost bought a Deuter bag.. grr~

Friday, 27 Nov '09

• Visited 2 houses for Hari Raya Haji.
• Went to Bugis Jucntion with mum & sis before that, while dad & bro went for friday prayers at masjid sultan.
• Felt so bloated after a feastful lunch & dinner at cousin's house.

Saturday, 28 Nov '09

• went to IMM with family.
• rainy day & saw a spout miles away..so freaking clear..wanted to snap a picture of it, but took a tree instead!
• started pouring much heavier as mum parked the car.
• lunch at Banquet, went to M1 after that.
• mum bought new phone, bro change contract.
• went to Bt Batok..bought a screen protector for my phone..got myself a white phone casing too.
• off to Beautyworld coz dad wanted to send sis' laptop for repair..shop closed, head home.

Sunday, 29 Nov '09

• woke up at noon..feeling lazy much.
• breakfast..watch TV..use my laptop..facebook, YOG, blog.
• listening songs from Youtube.
• went to check something online..realised the guy i met at Banquet yesterday was 'his' bro..hurhur xD
• memorising script for presentation on Tuesday.
• bathing soon..out to Plaza Singapura later for dinner with family.

P.S: To that guy who kept texting or calling, asking me to meet you, get this straight buddy. I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU! GOT THAT? Stop pestering me you irrtating basterd! I know what's been happening lately you fool!

Sandcastle Teambuilding - won 2nd place!

Dance performance

Friday
It's been raining for 5 days straight. Love the cooling weather but every day was a wet day. Bro has gone camping since wednesday, came home last night, & today went off to another camp. Hope he's doing fine. Hope my friends are doing fine too. Especially my secondary school cliques. Didn't manage to catch up with them for quite some time.
I've been stressed up with school work (i loathe letter writing!), i wonder how they're coping with their problems & their busy lives... Take care people :)

After 3 hours of lesson in school, shayne, echa, ros & i went to ITE Simei. Except for ros, the three of us applied for the casting audition. At first, we felt really nervous, but by the time we actually waited to be called, we became super bored. Shayne & echa managed to sleep for a while but i can't. After 2 freaking hours of waiting, in the end, the three of us plus the other 50 over applicants only had our photos taken because there was too many who signed up & the interview was ending soon. Now all of us are just waiting to be called back next week.

Saturday
yesterday's plan was cockup. supposed to go sengkang but due to some issues, all cracking our brains to think of a destination. in the end went to vivo city instead. together with boncet, fazzied & shrek. photos taken. eudy had archery match in the morning. didn't manage to watch her shoot.

I've just completed two YOG modules. It's interesting.
But loathe the part when i had to read those slidesssss before attending to the questions.
Pfft.
Back to updates!

Dancers were fcuking awesome. Vocalists & musicians were fantastic. Pyrotechnics & whatever stage set was great. I really can't describe much. The show was simply amazing.
Too bad for those who aren't fond of MJ, you don't have to waste your time reading this post :)
I was almost in tears watching him. I just felt sad.
Watching him was like seeing a ghost. But Mom told me that, it seems like he's still alive.
After the movie, had supper at BK. Nad text messaged me, followed by Eudy, & next, a call from Jyothi.
All 3 of them asked how was the movie, & let me tell ya...

Yesterday went to grandma's house.

Today meet up with Jyothi after school. Recently, she was discharged from NUH. I'm glad she's doing alright but still worried for her as she is still not well. She might faint anytime due to low blood count. Eudy & i wanted to surprise her by visiting her last Sunday, but it was cancelled.
Later, heading down to Cineleisure to catch THIS IS IT. Woohoo!

Tomorrow have dance discussion/meeting at ZCC.

Saturday most probably outing with ITE cliques.

Sunday..... no clue!

Went to West Coast park on Friday for sandcastle teambuilding. Fun & boring at the same time.
Pics will be uploaded soon.
Been practicing my hip hop steps for 1 week straight.
There was a Deepavali celebration cum moonlight walk @ Greenridge on Wednesday & block party on Saturday (which is yesterday).
I have never felt this kind of tiresome week for a very long time. My feet aches, my head spins...
Extremely busy with school matters & ZCC events that i had no time to update stuffs or get myself updated.
Sigh. I'm just glad everything was completed. For now, I've stopped volunteering temporarily, due to some issues. Maybe i'll continue after a few more events.

Even though i was excited & nervous about yesterday's event, i was
actually crossed with someone. Seriously pissed off that i almost teared. Thanks a lot!

Sorry for the lack of updates. Glad to be back in school. Second semester is filled with new modules & i'm excited to study them. Don't know if i'm ready to get pressured by school work again, but i'd rather get stress over school matters than personal problems. When i saw my new timetable on Monday, boy, was i surprised. I probably should adapt to it slowly.

Anyway, i've got no mood to talk about the past few days. Today, went for dance practice at ZCC again. This time is hip hop steps. Still having flu & sore throat that started 2 days. Hopefully i'll recover soon coz i really feel so suck-ish! *sniff sniff*

Since we had no lesson in the morning, some of my friends & i slacked outside 6/204 classroom. I was shocked that Zack fell to my knees and cried, as if begging for forgiveness. Just as I've suspected, a bitter news came in when he answered a call from his cellphone.

To my dear Zack. I'm so sorry for your lost. I hope you wont stay despondent. She's in a better place now. The Almighty will take good care of her :)

Two souls were taken away this week. Well, one was actually last week & the other was yesterday. The first was my far cousin's child. The infant was chocked by the umbical cord & passed away in the womb. The pre-matured child was already 8 months old. It's a pity he/she was unable to see the world.
The second was a grandfather. He was ill & has grown really old.
He was my sister's kindergarten friend - Shamsul's - grandfather. Eversince my sis & i were toddlers, besides Shamsul & he's cousins, he thought us to read Arabic words & the Qur'an. Like any other teacher, he was fierce & firm. But he was very friendly, loving & understanding. We all became like close friends... In fact, we were like a family. I remembered going to the swimming pool or the beach with them. Sadly, as we all grew up, we sort of grew apart. My sis & i have stopped our lessons with 'grandpa'. Though Shamsul's family & ours still kept in contact, but we're no longer close. Shamsul & his cousins became like strangers to my sis & i & we are like strangers to them. But whatever it is, there was & there is no hatred between my family & theirs. As for 'grandpa', instead of suffering much while he's alive, now, he has rest in peace & in a better place. Thank you for opening up my heart, to love & to understand Arab. I appreciate you truckloads.

I kept wondering what will happen to me if I wasn’t in Singapore, how my life will be like in other countries. Exactly 12 months ago, I’ve already decided to study overseas. Probably the thoughts of travelling to another country was one of the distractions during my O level examinations. Somehow I knew I’ve not done my best for every paper. I was so eager to study overseas till I neglected my concentrations for Os. Like most students across the nation who waited patiently for their results, I was extremely nervous. After receiving, I definitely broke down. But I held back my tears on the way home & so I started crying at home. I wasn’t only upset that I did really badly, but because of what my dad would think & say to me. And it’s expected. He presented me so much negative remarks that I started my waterfall again. He looked down on me & embarrassed me. Seriously, this is one of the things I hate about my life. I’m always compared with my sis. She’s bright & smarter than me, healthier than me, tougher than me. I’m always weak, weak, weak! Weak in studies, weak in health, what else?! Yes I’m JEALOUS! But I’m not asking to be perfect, I don’t want to be perfect & I don’t have win her in everything. Is just that people only see what she has that I don’t or what she’s capable of that I can’t. Do they see what I can do or have that my sis doesn’t?!
To Eudy – last week you asked why I posted that sentence in my Plurk. Well, this is why.

Anyway, the whole point of this post is about me wanting to study in Hudson College, which is in Canada. I've emailed my enquiries to the admin of the college & was so excited after finding out how the school was (studies, environment, etc). They have cleared my doubts & i was very pleased with their assistance. Though I felt that I was kinda irritating, coz after they replied, I asked more questions. But, hey, I’m just lost.
In the end, I was not allowed to go there. I pitied the school admin for helping me so much, but I didn’t enrol. Sigh.. I was really upset coz it was like my first time trying to achieve something I yearned for. 3 months of planning & it all goes to waste. My parents said I’m not ready to leave the nest all on my own. Mom could see that I was determined but thinks it’s a bad idea, while dad totally disapproves of me studying there. Soon, when I had fever for a month in December, maybe what my mum told me was right. I fell sick for a long period of time because, “mungkin ada hikmah disebaliknya”.

I still kept those emails & the school calendar, just for fun. I remembered the admin told me that one Singaporean student has enrolled himself/herself in Hudson College & will be starting during the fall (Autumn) season in 2009, which is early this month. I guess, now he/she has started his/her first semester. Lucky kid (:

~*~*~

My brother & i are still using the internet. Earlier on, i was so bored & decided to
talk to him... through MSN chat. Hehe. Furthermore we are sitting side by side in the living room.

Then he was trying to spam me. Since he appeared offline, it was unsuccessful. Haha!

These whole week has been... i don't know. Eventful?
Last Wednesday & Friday went for dance practice at ZCC. This year, my festive mood was not as lively as before. Even i got no mood to celebrate my birthday. The "BEST" 18th birthday ever!
Okay why am i talking about my birthday?
Anyway, I only had fun visiting relatives on my dad's side. For the rest of the day, it's either alright or suck-ish. In fact, almost every house we visited, they tend to ask the same question. But my sis got most of the attention.

Yesterday was the first day of Hari Raya &&& my bro's birthday.

HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY!!!

Suppose to wake up early & shower, so my hair will dry up & i can curl it. But typical me. Everytime the alarm in my cellphone is switched on, i kept hitting the snooze botton. After showering, my sis & i were rushing, preparing ourself till we didn't follow our plans. Even when i was outside, I still dunno how to style up my hair... After seeking for forgiveness from my parents & sis (bro too), went to grandma's house, so on & so forth.
Anyway, the first day was good enough. I enjoyed myself at aunt's house last night, which was our last visit. On the way home, i had a migrane. Probably because of my neck. At home, i washed up, watched TV for awhile & fell asleep at the sofa. As i was awaken this morning, i shift back to my room to sleep for a few more hours before going for more visiting. I was lying down for a short moment & suddenly i realized that i was still wearing my contact lens. Crap! In the end, i decided to wake up. Washed my face, remove my lens, brush teeeeeth, internet!
While waiting for my family to wake up, i shall use this opportunity to use my lappy-top :)
Oh great. My sis is awake now.

16 September 2009
On Tuesday, i baked instead of painting coz mum was still making pineapple tarts, so she didn't want me to create air pollution. Okay. Fine. So i started making my favourite treat - Biskut Sarang Semut (Ants' Nest Cookies). Had fun. Anyway, i was irritated by the ants. Just because it's named after their species, doesn't mean they can intrude. It was a warm day. I was extremely exhausted. Helped mum to hang the new curtains. having trouble with the hooks at first, but it's solved. Next, having trouble arranging the sofa. Urgh... & it's yet to be solved. In the evening, started to rain a little. At last!

17 September 2009
It was such a breezing Wednesday afternoon. Painted the door. It's white in colour. Sort of a lilac white. Had to wait hours for a re-coat. The smell really polluted the house...

18 September 2009
Rainy day! Set my alarm at 10am but woke up 2 plus in the afternoon. Hastily, i made some more Ants' Nest Cookies, showered, off to Zhenghua CC for practice. Since i came extremely late, danced for about 1hr plus. Time was already 6.45pm & everyone went out to break fast. Rushed to Bt Panjang Plaza to meet mum, sis & bro. Ate at McDonalds, bought my news specs at Spectacle Hut & headed home.

Boo!
Sorry for the dead blog. Currently I’m on hiatus. In fact I was actually kinda pissed over something, so I was lazy to blog. However, I only update my Plurk daily just to give you guys a quick status....heh. xD
Surprisingly, blogger is back to normal. Okay! Let’s get crakin’!

YES. Exams are over (long ago... -__-) & school’s out. I’ve been slacking at home since then but slowly started to clean the house during the weekends & preparing for the upcoming festive season (yay!). I’m actually doing my work pretty slow, so now I’m still not done with my room. I tend to procrastinate a lot. I’m glad that I’m ALMOST done with one room. Stayed all night last night & finally slept after sahur (breakfast). Yesterday I woke up in the afternoon & therefore started clearing rubbish, organising stuffs, etc at about 3pm all the way till 3 plus in the morning. After getting all dirty, finally this stinky Panda showered, ate, & snoozed. It was seriously very dusty & I was so irritated with my running nose. Today, woke at 1.20pm but when I looked at the clock, I thought it was 4.05pm. 12 hours of sleep huh...
So.... I was suppose to start cleaning my 2nd room (Don’t ask why I have 2 rooms), but unmanaged to do so. I was busy wiping the windows, ledges, scrubbing walls with sis, (Darn you bloody house lizards!) & helping mum with the pineapple tarts. In the evening, went to Ten Mile Junction to break fast & bought a few baking ingredients at Sheng Siong. Head to Geylang after that, bought carpet for the dining area, & paints for the window grills & the front door. Woohoo! Excited to paint. =)

Before heading home, sat at Mr Teh Tarik eating place for a drink.
To my darling Echa – I SAW BASIRUN. Hehe. Yup. One of my school SC that Echa went gaga for was having a meal with his friends there. He cannot stop looking at me. Recognised me maybe? Anyway, tomorrow’s plan will be wiping the window grills & paint them. Plus the door. New sofas will be coming in. Mum will hang new curtains, probably, vacuum & mop the floor & place the new carpet. Then on thursday, I can bake cookays!!! Can’t wait! Can’t wait! So many things to do so little time. Alright. I got to go now.



P.S. I’ll be back probably by the eve of Hari Raya. Stay tune! ;)

A chilly & wet day to wake up to. It's almost 2pm & i still think it's morning. Feel like going back to bed, all snuggled up. Bear hug!
Anyway just need to get myself clear. I HAVE TO BREAK THE HABIT - habit of consuming too many sweet stuffs everyday.
But that doesnt mean i've eaten too much candies. No no. I just had a few chocolates, candies maybe HACKS & tic tac only. Plus all the other food that accumulates. And probably because of sweet drinks too... =S
Have to cut down on junk food & drink more water.
I have to start flossing then brushing & lastly, applying my tooth mousse. Sigh... Don't know how long i can maintain this daily routine.
Yesterday, i kinda had ice cream..... twice...
Couldnt help it! My friend was eating McFlurry & i gotta have a few spoons of it. After that, i bought Berry-licious popsickle from 7-11. Hehe!
But that was it. Just a little treat for me self. Can't expect me to straight away change right?! pfft..

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Experiencing weakness has made me stronger - To be more tough & agile overcoming my losing points.
But have i struggle enough to do & to give my very best?
At times, i felt more vulnerable instead...

We smile during harsh times
We endure pain that can still be tolerated
We still accept things in life
Though there are some which we regretted

We win with pride, we lose with honour
Each moment of our lives, we try seeing the positive side
Some would rise while others fall
Thus, we held hope & had patience as our guide

Happiness come & go
Like everything else that we've battled
Life is short
But the longest journey we've travelled

Hello owls... or bat... or whatever nocturnal creatures...
It's 12:26am & i'm all alone at home.. Family's out at East Coast Park having a blast i guess..
Went to ZCC earlier on, with my laptop.... heavy....

Tue, 151209: Woke up early, an hour journey to NDC, & while i was there, waited 17 mins to be called in. Finally when it was my turn, yet to reach 5 mins, i was already done! So i went out to get my next appointment & surprisingly, i had to pay $34. I was like stunned for a moment. The doctor checked my teeth for less than 5 mins & i was charged. And it's more than 30 bucks! Sigh... nvm. After that, meet mum at Plaza Singapura. Had lunch together at LJS. Then mum went to work & i went home.

Wed, 161209: Nothing much. Just resting at home.

Thurs, 171209: Mum's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAK! Love you!
Had to go for another dental appointment, but this time was at Health Promotion Board.... which is just beside NDC.... No need to elaborate. The process was fcking painful. I became so moody after that, also because of some reason. Bro & i went to meet Zack at Wheelock & chilled at Forum McD for a while. Soon, we went seperate ways as he head to AMK while bro & i joined mum & dad for early dinner at Lucky Plaza. In the evening, decided to catch a movie at Cathay building, but the show no longer plays after 5 plus. Same goes for Plaza S'pura. We almost gave up & wanted to go home. Luckily the smart alex here, (haha! lame..) decided to watch the movie at Iluma. Since we were still at Cathay, i told sis to check the timing at FilmGarde & booked our tickets online. When we reached there, we were still an hour early. Dad collected the tickets & we chilled at Coffee Beans.

Anyway, my lovelies are safely back in Singapore. Hope you guys had fun & are now doing good. Have a good rest! =] "And Zack, i think you can forget about flying to London. Just stay here. Wakakaka..."

Ros & Shayne plus the other NYAA students from our school were off to Vietnam this noon as they will be having some activities there.
Didn't manage to see them off in the morning. Anyway they should be there by now..
Zack was suppose to have his flight like around this time back to London. But due to some problems, it's postponed to this Thursday.. "Ingat baru nak tengok dier kat airport. Hehe.."
Eudy went to Thailand a few days back.. Wondering how she's doing.. Haha. Only mention that she'll be back by 12am S'pore time but WHEN exactly i don't know..
Nazrul has went for NS.. Have fun dude :)
Whatever it is, take care people!!

This afternoon went for dance practice at ITE Simei. Bah! Roughly 2 hours of journey... Seriously made me fall asleep. But i had fun in class. I really enjoy Alex's hip hop class. After dance, ate dinner with Echa at KFC at Tamp. Window shopping after that, then head home.
Some complicated issues happened just now. I hope it's finally resolved... like really really solved!
No bluffing please. Got me worried man...

Tomorrow gotta wake up at about 8plus in the morning. Sigh. An hour journey to NDC then..... where should i go after that?? Grr... Wake up so early. Go dentist for a while then nothing to do & no where to go next!

Friday, 111209
Yesterday was one of my most emo-est (aka. emotional) days ever...
From the time i was on my way to school till the time i went home...
Fortunately, Mr Neo has somehow brightened up my mood during SVE lesson, with some activities he introduced to us. Since it was the last day of school for this term, he decided to let us play some games. It was really enjoyable & eventually we all received prizes that he bought for us. Before that, our first lesson was CSO, which we were supposed to be having our class test. But due to the PATHETIC attendance in the morning, it's cancelled.

After school, head to ZCC for some dance practice my friend was suppose to teach. However i was too early, he wasn't there, dance studio not open, decided to wait for an hour before the actual practice starts. Walked around Fajar & listening to music to kill time. And also because i was emo-ing. During that hour, i just remembered i had some urgent matters to do. So i pass the dance practice & walked all the way home... A gloomy day on a freakingly hot sunny day.

Saturday, 121209
Woke up at 6 plus in the morning. Get myself prepared & left house. Took train to Yishun station to meet Ros. Took train again to Yio Chu Kang station & head to NYP. Had a YOG Service Excellence training programme with some of the other volunteers, from 9am-1pm. Definitely learnt something for the YOG 2010. Surprisingly, most of the trainers were from our school. Our speaker was Mr Zaki.

I guess i've forgotten to mention about something in the previous post.. Writing For Business CA1 paper was alright.. Actually it's kinda easy.. Frankly the class & myself have tried the question before, as a practice, but unfortunately i didn't check my correction.. Which means my contents are poorly written..... again..

Anyway, this week is the last week of school.. Will be having 3 weeks break till January next year.. I seriously don't know how to spend my holidays.. I feel like working so badly, but on the other hand, i've other stuffs to do & i'm just afraid that i'm unable to juggle my time well..

Just thinking of some of the options -
. fat face (retail)
. converse (retail)
. big O (f&b)
. munch (f&b)

I need your help people.. Watcha think? Any other recommendations?
Sorry Eudy. I ain't going Vivo.. & sorry Jyothi. I don't think of working at NUH either.. Though it's a good pay.. Hehe.. So sorry my lovelies.. xD


Why do i keep letting my past to control me?
This is just f*cking frustrating & it agitates me.
Simple to ignore but difficult to forget about it.

Finally completed Service Excellence presentation on Fri.. I did good but could have done better.. Yesterday sis' beau came to our place. Soon all of us went out to celebrate sis' 20th birthday.. Happy birthday Kat! We all took public transportation instead of dad's car. Thought of listening to music from my cellphone, but realized that i left it on the dining table at home. Urgh..
We check out the new building - 313 @ Somerset.. Later, headed to Centerpoint.. I got bored of walking around, i asked mum if we could watch a movie. Since sis wanted to catch New Moon, we went Cathay building to check the timing.. There were 2 timings that was filling fast, so we decided to check at Plaza S'pura instead. Luckily we got a spot.. While the 4 of us watched New Moon, mum & dad were watching other shows.. Both movies ended at almost the same time, but mum & dad was a bit later by 20-30mins.. At around 11plus, we manage to board the last bus home.. Abang Zul had to take to MRT back to Yishun..

When we reached home, i got 1 missed call & 2 text msgs.. Didnt manage to reply cause i was so super duper tired & sleepy.. Hehe.. Sorry Eudy..
Today woke up at 10.50am.. Mum & dad have left to work.. Bro & sis still sleeping.. Now i'm alone at the living room, eating cereal, checking mails & blogging! At the same time, listening to MJ's song Human Nature & Stranger in Moscow.. It's very calming.....

Went to sch in the morning, all fine. Came home with blisters & plaster all over my feet!
Well. Only my left foot...
But still!!! Both feet hurts!

Sigh... Couldn't stop sneezing since i ended school 6 hours ago. The last period was Service Excellence, but Mr Neo gave us the opportunity to watch another movie in class instead of doing work. We sat in the air-conditioned room for 4.5 hours. My feet became numb, body shivering & running nose. Got tired after a long day in school, & i might have rubbed my eyes a little too harsh. So it became painful, then it itch, then tears start to fill my eyes..
Great.

Tomorrow lessons starts late. I'll probably reach school 11plus. Woohoo!
Some of my classmates are presenting their scripts tomorrow While others are on other days.
Oh shit!!! I have to present tomorrow.. Darn.
I totally forgot about my role as a customer for 'Aini's presentation.
My actual SVE presentation is this Friday. So there's lots of time for me to prepare.
Plus, it's easy peasy! haha.. oops!
Sigh.. Looks like i have to reach school by 10 or 10plus.

Will be sitting for WRB CA1 paper on Thursday.
Gosh. I really hate letter writing...

Had enough sugar rush for the night.
I've just consumed MUG Rootbeer. Thought of drinking Berries Brands next.
On second thought - nevermind.

Wednesday, 25 Nov '09

• Hurt my feet for wearing my Mondo high-heels to school yesterday.
• Met Jyothi at BPP after school to find Yan Teng's b'day present.
• Joined mum & dad after that..head home.

Thursday, 26 Nov '09

• Meet mum & dad at EXPO after school, for the IT & John Little sale
• Shopped much; bought my Addidas perfume, ZA tinted mosturiser & belt.
• Not forgetting a white Addidas long sleeve & Addidas 'Love Milan' t-shirt at the branded sale.
• Almost bought a Deuter bag.. grr~

Friday, 27 Nov '09

• Visited 2 houses for Hari Raya Haji.
• Went to Bugis Jucntion with mum & sis before that, while dad & bro went for friday prayers at masjid sultan.
• Felt so bloated after a feastful lunch & dinner at cousin's house.

Saturday, 28 Nov '09

• went to IMM with family.
• rainy day & saw a spout miles away..so freaking clear..wanted to snap a picture of it, but took a tree instead!
• started pouring much heavier as mum parked the car.
• lunch at Banquet, went to M1 after that.
• mum bought new phone, bro change contract.
• went to Bt Batok..bought a screen protector for my phone..got myself a white phone casing too.
• off to Beautyworld coz dad wanted to send sis' laptop for repair..shop closed, head home.

Sunday, 29 Nov '09

• woke up at noon..feeling lazy much.
• breakfast..watch TV..use my laptop..facebook, YOG, blog.
• listening songs from Youtube.
• went to check something online..realised the guy i met at Banquet yesterday was 'his' bro..hurhur xD
• memorising script for presentation on Tuesday.
• bathing soon..out to Plaza Singapura later for dinner with family.

P.S: To that guy who kept texting or calling, asking me to meet you, get this straight buddy. I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU! GOT THAT? Stop pestering me you irrtating basterd! I know what's been happening lately you fool!

Sandcastle Teambuilding - won 2nd place!

Dance performance

Friday
It's been raining for 5 days straight. Love the cooling weather but every day was a wet day. Bro has gone camping since wednesday, came home last night, & today went off to another camp. Hope he's doing fine. Hope my friends are doing fine too. Especially my secondary school cliques. Didn't manage to catch up with them for quite some time.
I've been stressed up with school work (i loathe letter writing!), i wonder how they're coping with their problems & their busy lives... Take care people :)

After 3 hours of lesson in school, shayne, echa, ros & i went to ITE Simei. Except for ros, the three of us applied for the casting audition. At first, we felt really nervous, but by the time we actually waited to be called, we became super bored. Shayne & echa managed to sleep for a while but i can't. After 2 freaking hours of waiting, in the end, the three of us plus the other 50 over applicants only had our photos taken because there was too many who signed up & the interview was ending soon. Now all of us are just waiting to be called back next week.

Saturday
yesterday's plan was cockup. supposed to go sengkang but due to some issues, all cracking our brains to think of a destination. in the end went to vivo city instead. together with boncet, fazzied & shrek. photos taken. eudy had archery match in the morning. didn't manage to watch her shoot.

I've just completed two YOG modules. It's interesting.
But loathe the part when i had to read those slidesssss before attending to the questions.
Pfft.
Back to updates!

Dancers were fcuking awesome. Vocalists & musicians were fantastic. Pyrotechnics & whatever stage set was great. I really can't describe much. The show was simply amazing.
Too bad for those who aren't fond of MJ, you don't have to waste your time reading this post :)
I was almost in tears watching him. I just felt sad.
Watching him was like seeing a ghost. But Mom told me that, it seems like he's still alive.
After the movie, had supper at BK. Nad text messaged me, followed by Eudy, & next, a call from Jyothi.
All 3 of them asked how was the movie, & let me tell ya...

Yesterday went to grandma's house.

Today meet up with Jyothi after school. Recently, she was discharged from NUH. I'm glad she's doing alright but still worried for her as she is still not well. She might faint anytime due to low blood count. Eudy & i wanted to surprise her by visiting her last Sunday, but it was cancelled.
Later, heading down to Cineleisure to catch THIS IS IT. Woohoo!

Tomorrow have dance discussion/meeting at ZCC.

Saturday most probably outing with ITE cliques.

Sunday..... no clue!

Went to West Coast park on Friday for sandcastle teambuilding. Fun & boring at the same time.
Pics will be uploaded soon.
Been practicing my hip hop steps for 1 week straight.
There was a Deepavali celebration cum moonlight walk @ Greenridge on Wednesday & block party on Saturday (which is yesterday).
I have never felt this kind of tiresome week for a very long time. My feet aches, my head spins...
Extremely busy with school matters & ZCC events that i had no time to update stuffs or get myself updated.
Sigh. I'm just glad everything was completed. For now, I've stopped volunteering temporarily, due to some issues. Maybe i'll continue after a few more events.

Even though i was excited & nervous about yesterday's event, i was
actually crossed with someone. Seriously pissed off that i almost teared. Thanks a lot!

Sorry for the lack of updates. Glad to be back in school. Second semester is filled with new modules & i'm excited to study them. Don't know if i'm ready to get pressured by school work again, but i'd rather get stress over school matters than personal problems. When i saw my new timetable on Monday, boy, was i surprised. I probably should adapt to it slowly.

Anyway, i've got no mood to talk about the past few days. Today, went for dance practice at ZCC again. This time is hip hop steps. Still having flu & sore throat that started 2 days. Hopefully i'll recover soon coz i really feel so suck-ish! *sniff sniff*

Since we had no lesson in the morning, some of my friends & i slacked outside 6/204 classroom. I was shocked that Zack fell to my knees and cried, as if begging for forgiveness. Just as I've suspected, a bitter news came in when he answered a call from his cellphone.

To my dear Zack. I'm so sorry for your lost. I hope you wont stay despondent. She's in a better place now. The Almighty will take good care of her :)

Two souls were taken away this week. Well, one was actually last week & the other was yesterday. The first was my far cousin's child. The infant was chocked by the umbical cord & passed away in the womb. The pre-matured child was already 8 months old. It's a pity he/she was unable to see the world.
The second was a grandfather. He was ill & has grown really old.
He was my sister's kindergarten friend - Shamsul's - grandfather. Eversince my sis & i were toddlers, besides Shamsul & he's cousins, he thought us to read Arabic words & the Qur'an. Like any other teacher, he was fierce & firm. But he was very friendly, loving & understanding. We all became like close friends... In fact, we were like a family. I remembered going to the swimming pool or the beach with them. Sadly, as we all grew up, we sort of grew apart. My sis & i have stopped our lessons with 'grandpa'. Though Shamsul's family & ours still kept in contact, but we're no longer close. Shamsul & his cousins became like strangers to my sis & i & we are like strangers to them. But whatever it is, there was & there is no hatred between my family & theirs. As for 'grandpa', instead of suffering much while he's alive, now, he has rest in peace & in a better place. Thank you for opening up my heart, to love & to understand Arab. I appreciate you truckloads.

I kept wondering what will happen to me if I wasn’t in Singapore, how my life will be like in other countries. Exactly 12 months ago, I’ve already decided to study overseas. Probably the thoughts of travelling to another country was one of the distractions during my O level examinations. Somehow I knew I’ve not done my best for every paper. I was so eager to study overseas till I neglected my concentrations for Os. Like most students across the nation who waited patiently for their results, I was extremely nervous. After receiving, I definitely broke down. But I held back my tears on the way home & so I started crying at home. I wasn’t only upset that I did really badly, but because of what my dad would think & say to me. And it’s expected. He presented me so much negative remarks that I started my waterfall again. He looked down on me & embarrassed me. Seriously, this is one of the things I hate about my life. I’m always compared with my sis. She’s bright & smarter than me, healthier than me, tougher than me. I’m always weak, weak, weak! Weak in studies, weak in health, what else?! Yes I’m JEALOUS! But I’m not asking to be perfect, I don’t want to be perfect & I don’t have win her in everything. Is just that people only see what she has that I don’t or what she’s capable of that I can’t. Do they see what I can do or have that my sis doesn’t?!
To Eudy – last week you asked why I posted that sentence in my Plurk. Well, this is why.

Anyway, the whole point of this post is about me wanting to study in Hudson College, which is in Canada. I've emailed my enquiries to the admin of the college & was so excited after finding out how the school was (studies, environment, etc). They have cleared my doubts & i was very pleased with their assistance. Though I felt that I was kinda irritating, coz after they replied, I asked more questions. But, hey, I’m just lost.
In the end, I was not allowed to go there. I pitied the school admin for helping me so much, but I didn’t enrol. Sigh.. I was really upset coz it was like my first time trying to achieve something I yearned for. 3 months of planning & it all goes to waste. My parents said I’m not ready to leave the nest all on my own. Mom could see that I was determined but thinks it’s a bad idea, while dad totally disapproves of me studying there. Soon, when I had fever for a month in December, maybe what my mum told me was right. I fell sick for a long period of time because, “mungkin ada hikmah disebaliknya”.

I still kept those emails & the school calendar, just for fun. I remembered the admin told me that one Singaporean student has enrolled himself/herself in Hudson College & will be starting during the fall (Autumn) season in 2009, which is early this month. I guess, now he/she has started his/her first semester. Lucky kid (:

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My brother & i are still using the internet. Earlier on, i was so bored & decided to
talk to him... through MSN chat. Hehe. Furthermore we are sitting side by side in the living room.

Then he was trying to spam me. Since he appeared offline, it was unsuccessful. Haha!

These whole week has been... i don't know. Eventful?
Last Wednesday & Friday went for dance practice at ZCC. This year, my festive mood was not as lively as before. Even i got no mood to celebrate my birthday. The "BEST" 18th birthday ever!
Okay why am i talking about my birthday?
Anyway, I only had fun visiting relatives on my dad's side. For the rest of the day, it's either alright or suck-ish. In fact, almost every house we visited, they tend to ask the same question. But my sis got most of the attention.

Yesterday was the first day of Hari Raya &&& my bro's birthday.

HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY!!!

Suppose to wake up early & shower, so my hair will dry up & i can curl it. But typical me. Everytime the alarm in my cellphone is switched on, i kept hitting the snooze botton. After showering, my sis & i were rushing, preparing ourself till we didn't follow our plans. Even when i was outside, I still dunno how to style up my hair... After seeking for forgiveness from my parents & sis (bro too), went to grandma's house, so on & so forth.
Anyway, the first day was good enough. I enjoyed myself at aunt's house last night, which was our last visit. On the way home, i had a migrane. Probably because of my neck. At home, i washed up, watched TV for awhile & fell asleep at the sofa. As i was awaken this morning, i shift back to my room to sleep for a few more hours before going for more visiting. I was lying down for a short moment & suddenly i realized that i was still wearing my contact lens. Crap! In the end, i decided to wake up. Washed my face, remove my lens, brush teeeeeth, internet!
While waiting for my family to wake up, i shall use this opportunity to use my lappy-top :)
Oh great. My sis is awake now.

16 September 2009
On Tuesday, i baked instead of painting coz mum was still making pineapple tarts, so she didn't want me to create air pollution. Okay. Fine. So i started making my favourite treat - Biskut Sarang Semut (Ants' Nest Cookies). Had fun. Anyway, i was irritated by the ants. Just because it's named after their species, doesn't mean they can intrude. It was a warm day. I was extremely exhausted. Helped mum to hang the new curtains. having trouble with the hooks at first, but it's solved. Next, having trouble arranging the sofa. Urgh... & it's yet to be solved. In the evening, started to rain a little. At last!

17 September 2009
It was such a breezing Wednesday afternoon. Painted the door. It's white in colour. Sort of a lilac white. Had to wait hours for a re-coat. The smell really polluted the house...

18 September 2009
Rainy day! Set my alarm at 10am but woke up 2 plus in the afternoon. Hastily, i made some more Ants' Nest Cookies, showered, off to Zhenghua CC for practice. Since i came extremely late, danced for about 1hr plus. Time was already 6.45pm & everyone went out to break fast. Rushed to Bt Panjang Plaza to meet mum, sis & bro. Ate at McDonalds, bought my news specs at Spectacle Hut & headed home.

Boo!
Sorry for the dead blog. Currently I’m on hiatus. In fact I was actually kinda pissed over something, so I was lazy to blog. However, I only update my Plurk daily just to give you guys a quick status....heh. xD
Surprisingly, blogger is back to normal. Okay! Let’s get crakin’!

YES. Exams are over (long ago... -__-) & school’s out. I’ve been slacking at home since then but slowly started to clean the house during the weekends & preparing for the upcoming festive season (yay!). I’m actually doing my work pretty slow, so now I’m still not done with my room. I tend to procrastinate a lot. I’m glad that I’m ALMOST done with one room. Stayed all night last night & finally slept after sahur (breakfast). Yesterday I woke up in the afternoon & therefore started clearing rubbish, organising stuffs, etc at about 3pm all the way till 3 plus in the morning. After getting all dirty, finally this stinky Panda showered, ate, & snoozed. It was seriously very dusty & I was so irritated with my running nose. Today, woke at 1.20pm but when I looked at the clock, I thought it was 4.05pm. 12 hours of sleep huh...
So.... I was suppose to start cleaning my 2nd room (Don’t ask why I have 2 rooms), but unmanaged to do so. I was busy wiping the windows, ledges, scrubbing walls with sis, (Darn you bloody house lizards!) & helping mum with the pineapple tarts. In the evening, went to Ten Mile Junction to break fast & bought a few baking ingredients at Sheng Siong. Head to Geylang after that, bought carpet for the dining area, & paints for the window grills & the front door. Woohoo! Excited to paint. =)

Before heading home, sat at Mr Teh Tarik eating place for a drink.
To my darling Echa – I SAW BASIRUN. Hehe. Yup. One of my school SC that Echa went gaga for was having a meal with his friends there. He cannot stop looking at me. Recognised me maybe? Anyway, tomorrow’s plan will be wiping the window grills & paint them. Plus the door. New sofas will be coming in. Mum will hang new curtains, probably, vacuum & mop the floor & place the new carpet. Then on thursday, I can bake cookays!!! Can’t wait! Can’t wait! So many things to do so little time. Alright. I got to go now.



P.S. I’ll be back probably by the eve of Hari Raya. Stay tune! ;)